It's not quite suicide if you were just playing pretend.

It's not quite suicide if you were just playing pretend.
It's not quite death if you meant to wake up.
It's not quite grief if you couldn't do anything.
It's not quite repetition if you don't know what you're repeating.
It's not quite fear if you knew what you were doing.
It's not quite blind if you saw his eyes.
It's not quite a joke if you're the only one laughing.
It's not quite suicide if you were just playing pretend.